Early Morning Musings

Broken

I wanted you to know
That I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain …away
I keep your photograph
And I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away
You don't feel me here....anymore

The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn
And no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone...away

You're gone away
You don't feel me here....anymore


So I guess I'm just in a "Broken" kind of mood today. I'm not exactly sure of the reason, there could be many. The fact that it is currently five in the morning and I am still up could have something to do with that. But I know if I tried to go to sleep right now, I probably wouldn't be able to. Too much on my mind. I had a conversation with my mother yesterday. She now believes that I am depressed bordering on suicidal. I'm sure she wishes I was home so she could put me on meds again because I am just "so depressed." Yeah, right. To settle things right here, I am not depressed, and I do not want to kill myself. Sheesh, that seems to be quite a popular opinion lately. Anyway, I didn't really know what to write in this entry....but I knew if I came up with a small idea, I could go off of that, and probably end up in a completely different place by the end of it. Of all the things on my mind right now, you would think I could find intelligent words to describe at least one of them. Who knows what I'd say. But this song kicks ass.