Breakaway
So I was (once again) trying to figure out where I am going to school next year. I had a lot of choices, SVU surprisingly being one of them. I was thinking about it, then I realized something. I realized I don't want to go to college next year. So I'm not going to.
It's always been something that was just part of the "plan" for me--you know,finish high school, go to college, ect. I never stopped to wonder if I really WANTED to go to college or not. Never stopped to wonder if college was really the right thing for me. I finally sat down and thought about it, and realized that it's not. So I made a decision about MY life. I'm going to go to massage therapy school in Florida, get a job,and work my way up to what I want to do with my life on the side. I can't get where I want to be in life with a degree. Sure, it may help, but it's not required. I'm not saying I want massage therapy to be my career, either. It's something I want right now, and I'm going for it. For once I am taking a huge risk with my life. Not following the path expected of me. All my cousins my age,
everyone in my family has gone to college one way or another. I'm breaking the mold, I guess you could say. I've always been afraid of disappointing my parents, or hurting them. But now I realize that they are old enough to handle it. They are going to have to handle the fact that their daughter is mature enough to make a decision about what she wants to do with her life by herself, no matter how insane it may be. Now I know my parents, and I know that they aren't going to react like this. Not even close. They're going to freak. But eventually they will realize what I did. How big of a step this is for me. It will probably take them a loooong while, but they will.
I always thought that my career I wanted would come naturally after college. That it was just something I'd figure out while I was here. Well, I did. I just never thought it'd be something I didn't actually need to be in college for. I know that my parents and most people that know me will get on the whole "Oh she's just being a rebellious teenager...she'll grow up soon enough" soapbox, but I don't care anymore. I'm doing what I want for once, not what's expected of me. I'm chasing one of MY dreams, no one else's. I may crash and burn, but I will have learned from my experiences. I know that I have a reputation for getting crazy ideas and not following through on any of them. But this is different. And I don't care if anyone believes me that it is. I know it is, and that's all that matters to me right now.
So I'm taking this huge chance with my life, and I know it's going to be hard, but I'm going to have fun with it. It's completely insane and unexpected and crazy. But you know what? I'm doing it anyway.
It's always been something that was just part of the "plan" for me--you know,finish high school, go to college, ect. I never stopped to wonder if I really WANTED to go to college or not. Never stopped to wonder if college was really the right thing for me. I finally sat down and thought about it, and realized that it's not. So I made a decision about MY life. I'm going to go to massage therapy school in Florida, get a job,and work my way up to what I want to do with my life on the side. I can't get where I want to be in life with a degree. Sure, it may help, but it's not required. I'm not saying I want massage therapy to be my career, either. It's something I want right now, and I'm going for it. For once I am taking a huge risk with my life. Not following the path expected of me. All my cousins my age,
everyone in my family has gone to college one way or another. I'm breaking the mold, I guess you could say. I've always been afraid of disappointing my parents, or hurting them. But now I realize that they are old enough to handle it. They are going to have to handle the fact that their daughter is mature enough to make a decision about what she wants to do with her life by herself, no matter how insane it may be. Now I know my parents, and I know that they aren't going to react like this. Not even close. They're going to freak. But eventually they will realize what I did. How big of a step this is for me. It will probably take them a loooong while, but they will.
I always thought that my career I wanted would come naturally after college. That it was just something I'd figure out while I was here. Well, I did. I just never thought it'd be something I didn't actually need to be in college for. I know that my parents and most people that know me will get on the whole "Oh she's just being a rebellious teenager...she'll grow up soon enough" soapbox, but I don't care anymore. I'm doing what I want for once, not what's expected of me. I'm chasing one of MY dreams, no one else's. I may crash and burn, but I will have learned from my experiences. I know that I have a reputation for getting crazy ideas and not following through on any of them. But this is different. And I don't care if anyone believes me that it is. I know it is, and that's all that matters to me right now.
So I'm taking this huge chance with my life, and I know it's going to be hard, but I'm going to have fun with it. It's completely insane and unexpected and crazy. But you know what? I'm doing it anyway.
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