Somewhere Down The Road There'll Be Answers To The Questions

"Fireflies"

Before you met me I was a fairy princess
I caught frogs and called them prince and made myself a queen
Before you knew me I traveled round the world
I slept in castles and fell in love
Because I was taught to dream

I found mayonnaise bottles and
Poked holes on top to capture Tinkerbell
They were just fireflies to the untrained eye
But I could always tell
I believe in fairytales
And dreamers dreams like bed sheet sails
And I believe in Peter Pan and miracles
Anything I can to get by
And fireflies

Before I grew up I saw you on a cloud
I could bless myself in your name
And patch you on your wings
Before I grew up I heard you whisper so loud,
"Life is hard and so is love, child, believe in all these things"

I found mayonnaise bottles and
Poked holes on top to capture Tinkerbell
They were just fireflies to the untrained eye
But I could always tell
I believe in fairytales
And dreamers dreams like bed sheet sails
And I believe in Peter Pan and miracles
Anything I can to get by
And fireflies....
Fireflies

Before you met me I was a fairy princess
I caught frogs and called them prince and made myself a queen
Before you knew me I traveled round the world
And I slept in castles and fell in love
Because I was taught to dream

You're All Kinds Of Beautiful As You End My Day

Life is all about taking chances. If you don't take chances, you don't get anywhere. There comes a moment in your life when you realize that luck IS on your side, and it IS possible to get everything you ever wanted. Because you took a chance on love, and didn't get your heart broken. Because you accomplished something that no one ever thought you could do. Because you went for your dream when you thought you'd never have enough guts to do it. Because you took a route that no one else has ever taken, and are completely opposed to. Because you believed in yourself. That's all it takes.

Or one person. You could have one person that is always there for you. Always believes you, and pushes you to be better. To settle for nothing less than the best. They show you how amazing life can be. They inspire you to have faith in what you know you can do. They are your inspiration.

I'm on my way towards all of these things. Here's to hoping I get there.

"Pretty Girl"

Pretty girl is suffering while he confesses everything
Pretty soon she'll figure out what his intentions were about
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get him out of your head
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get him out of your head

It's the way that he makes you feel
It's the way that he kisses you
It's the way that he makes you fall in love

She's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego and
Her killer instinct tells her to be aware of evil men
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get him out of your head
And that's what you get for falling again
Uou can never get him out of your head

it's the way that he makes you feel
it's the way that he kisses you
it's the way that he makes you fall in love
it's the way that he makes you feel
it's the way that he kisses you
it's the way that he makes you fall in love...

pretty girl...
pretty girl...
pretty girl...
pretty girl...

pretty girl is suffering while he confesses everything
pretty soon she'll figure out
you can never get him out of your head

It's the way that he makes you cry,
It's the way that he's in your mind,
It's the way that he makes you fall in love,
It's the way that he makes you feel,
It's the way that he kisses you,
It's the way that he makes you fall in love...love...

Laughing With Your Broken Eyes

So I have concluded that there has GOT to me something wrong with me. The other night I went on a date with this really cool guy and felt absolutely NOTHING. I tried to, believe me, I tried. But still nothing. I mean there wasn’t anything wrong with this guy at all, but apparently there is something wrong with me. You know, I've really hated that you can’t control who you have feelings for. I mean this guy probably would have been very good for me, but I wasn’t attracted to him….at ALL.

Oh and another thing. Apparently I have no guts. That, and I am so entirely terrified of what will happen that I refuse to do anything about it. I tend not focus on the fact that something GOOD could actually come out of it. I hate how people judge without even knowing that person. That annoys me. I also hate how people freak out so easily when I’m honest with them. Some people appreciate honesty. They don’t freak out and not talk to me again. Arghhh I swear it’s like two years ago all over again. Only things are different this time. I wish some people could see that. It really makes me want to pull my hair out, and then I think Okay, no…this is a GOOD thing….he’s bad for you….you have nothing in common anymore….he’s not your type….he’ll just mess with your mind….it’s a good thing.. Unfortunately my logical thinking is in full swing lately. That annoys me too. If I didn’t follow my head all the time I might actually get somewhere in a relationship.

Okay so if I actually do this…and do it right this time….things could turn out good, or he could say “Oh,” and never talk to me again. (Not that he’s especially talking to me NOW…so I wouldn’t be changing much, now would I.) And I feel as if I need to prove to myself that yes, I DO have guts, and I CAN do this. I screwed it up last time, I need to do it RIGHT this time. I’m thinking too much about it….ACTION time!

From My Head To My Heart, Can't Seem To Find A Way, They're So Far Apart

"Hope For Me Yet"

I could bless the water, but it wouldn't turn to wine
Paint a picture of the sunset hangin' there in your eyes,
But it'd just be some compromise...

I could write a million verses of words you've heard before,
Steal some of Dylan's best, but it'd leave me wanting to say more
'Cause there's so much more...

Baby if you could love someone like me,
There's no end to the possibilities
Hopes and dreams push away the pain and regret
But lovin' you just lets me know,
There might be hope for me yet...

Sometimes when I look back I don't even know myself
Blows my mind to think that I've found
Grace in someone else, baby your grace is somethin' else

Baby if you could love someone like me,
There's no end to the possibilities
Hopes and dreams push away the pain and regret
But lovin' you just lets me know,
There might be hope for me yet...

For a man who's done nothin',
I've been blessed with so much more than I deserve
I'm smart enough to now that I've been handed somethin',
Can't put a price on what it's worth...

Baby if you could love someone like me,
There's no end to the possibilities
Hopes and dreams push away the pain and regret
But lovin' you just lets me know,
There might be hope for me yet...
Hope for me yet...

Give Anything But I Won't Give Up

So I’m a big fan of pro/con lists. I have difficulties making certain types of decisions. Recently I’ve had quite a decision to make. Out came the pro/con lists. I was attempting to fill them out when I realized something. I really don’t have enough information to make this kind of decision. Especially when it’s choosing between two people. It’s not as easy as a pro/con list anymore. There is so much more at stake. I realized that it isn’t really fair to make a list. Some things you just can’t shove into little categories. Love doesn’t work like that. It’s this rush of emotions that you can never figure out. Putting it on paper won’t help. It’s not simple. It’s not clean-cut. And it sure as hell can’t be understood. Sometimes I begin to think it’s not supposed to be easy. Maybe it never is. It’s like that song says, Whiskey Lullaby, “Well she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind.” You have no idea how true that is.

A Tragedy With More Damage Than A Soul Should See

Wow it's been a long time. Since I've felt like this, I mean. It's odd, what used to be such a major part of my life hasn't been for quite some time. I thought I was over it, and everything that happened with it.....but I'm not. Not at all.