Will You Come Home And Stop This Pain Tonight, Stop This Pain Tonight

It started when I had to erase his number from my cell phone. I was cleaning out my phone book and deleting everyones number who had moved since I left for school. I could have left it there, it wouldn't have made a difference. But I erased it.

Then we watched some war movie. Windtalkers, I think it was called. Sad that that would do it for me, too. The second we got home my parents started one of their usual screaming matches over something trivial- -my mom had left a window open, I think. Then they ran out of ammo for each other, I guess, and started in on me. The only thing I could think was, "Not now. Not tonight. No fucking way." So I ran up to my room and escaped as quick as I possibly could, before they started say things that actually HURT.

Maybe my gaurds are down, maybe it's being back here, I don't know what's causing it. It's just......there. That's all I know. It's just there.