WANTED: Glass Slippers........

Strange thing happened today. I found myself crying. I never cry. Ever. Although I will say that I had significantly good reason to, it's still unusual. I'm one of those people who despises crying. It makes me feel extremely vulnerable, a feeling I avoid at all costs. But this particular feeling is one that I can't seem to get to go away lately. It is always there, by my side, in whatever I do. Staring back at me when I look in the mirror, crushing in my chest whenever I think about it.

Also, I think that as more and more time passes.....I tend to have extremely negative feelings about love. I usually swing back and forth between believing in it, and believing that its some made up thing that only happens if you're Cinderella. But, alas, I own no glass slippers. Anyone who knows me knows that I haven't had the greatest past experiences with love. And as I said before, I avoid vulnerability at all costs. Love makes people vulnerable. I've tried the whole putting my heart on the line thing, and it never works out. So I stopped trying. Hence the negative feelings. And this is only about a quarter of the story about my awful love life. As if falling in love with my best guy friend who was in love with my best girl friend wasn't enough.

At the beginning of this year, I could have described my life and it would have sounded like something out of the Young and the Restless. Although it has calmed down quite a bit, there are still little reminders every day about how it used to be. Glances, little memorabilia scattered here and there that force me to remember. As much as I dread these moments, they serve a greater purpose, I assume. I haven't quite figured out what it is yet. If anyone knows, feel free to comment. ;) As for me, anyone have an extra pair of glass slippers??