It's MY Life

Hurricane? Yeah, hasn't happened yet. I mean there have been a few things here and there that make me wonder, but nothing catastrophic. Nothing to make me feel as if the storm has finally hit. I've decided that I'm becoming too much like the people here. Most of them care too much about every little thing and the image they present to people, and they are always in everybodys business. It gets quite annoying after a while, dealing with nosy people who can't live and let live. But I haven't even been here a year yet and I am already starting to become like them. I've decided I'm going to change that. I can't stand the person I've become since I've been here. I hate it. It's not me. So I'm not going to do it anymore. I'm going to live the way I want, and if someone has a problem with me, they will take it up with ME, not go talking to everyone else about it. Now, don't get me wrong, not everyone in this god-forsaken place is a nosy, feel-good-care-too-much mormon. There are some decent people here. But there are others, who I just want to smack and say to them, "You know what? Mind your own business!" But I won't. I've decided not to care. If someone doesn't like me, or what I'm doing, oh well. I live for ME, not for anyone else.

Distorted Reality

I feel as if for the last couple of weeks I have been living in a life that isn't mine. For a moment, I will wonder, what am I doing, and then I don't really care. For once, I'm not going on logic. I have lived my entire life logically, and I have now just thrown it out the window. It feels like everything I have ever learned, or thought was true, has just been disputed. Things that I previously didn't think were possible, now are. But I'm just waiting, waiting for things to go back to how they were. They always say there is a calm before the storm, and I figure, the way my life has been lately? I better be looking out for a hurricane.

Another Venue

I have now decided to try my hand at blogging. I have participated in many before, but I have never had my own. I figured it would be a good avenue to vent my thoughts, rather than having the notebook full of random things. (which I currently have) So this is a first, and I guess we will see how it turns out.